Life Notes

 
LongwoodJanuary-98
 

Hello. How are you? It’s been a million years since we last spoke. Real life has taken steroids for the past two months and I’ve raced to keep pace with it. It is a good thing I run marathons or this time of struggle would have wrecked a lesser me.

I like to keep this blog and my social media posts upbeat; sharing useful tidbits for followers or a pretty picture for them to admire. I don’t delve at all into my sometimes crazy personal life. Perhaps I should. I’ve been blessed with much awesomeness in my life but with that sweetness comes the bitter. No life is perfect. Especially mine. The past two months have been especially difficult. For several years, I have cared for an aging parent with dementia. Her health took a turn for the worse in December and her illness has profoundly affected her overall condition, making her unable to move about unassisted. This is a marked change from her normal independent state. Working full-time while juggling care for a parent in this state has left me with precious little time to work on my creative projects. I have had to set aside writing on the blog and discovered how profoundly I miss writing in this venue. Running has been sidelined and my heart breaks just a little when I see mileage updates of my running friends on FaceBook.

I understand that all this is temporary until Mom recovers or the decision is made to place her in more advanced care. I wrestle with this decision everyday. I want to give Mom a fighting chance at recovery – at least physically – before making any drastic change in her living situation. But I don’t have all the time in the world. None of us do. I want to make sure the decision for Mom’s care balances what feels right in my heart and what is best for her.

Please don’t take this post as a feel sorry for Tania post. It is nothing of the sort. I want to share a struggle that is common to many people and hopefully give encouragement to caregivers.

This blog will go on, my novel will be written and I will continue to create photographic art and travel. And run lots and lots of miles.

All the while doing what is best for a woman who raised a wild child into a perfectly creative lady.

Stay tuned, my friends, the best is yet to come!

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  • rochester_veteran

    I’ve been praying for you and your Mom, Tania and hope for the best in whatever decision you have to make.

  • D. B. Light

    Stay strong, Tania. These are rough times to be sure, but you are right — things will get better.

  • I will be praying for you and your mom. (Isaiah 41:10)